I want moral certainty.

Should not right and wrong be clear simply by virtue of being good? Is it not enough to have empathy? If moral certainty requires such meticulous critical thinking and a lifetime of wisdom, is it only for the idle? Only for the wise? Then what purpose could it serve for the rest of us?

If morality even exists then it should be understood instinctly if it is to be utilised. Then what of the genetic morality that we absorb from parents and the social world? Could that be the true ethical tenet for it has more or less prevailed through the timeline of man? Is something right simply because enough people believe it to be so?

And how do we recognise truth - perhaps we once stumbled across Moral Truth and kept going? If we cannot recognise truth then doesn't this suggest that it does not exist? Atleast, it cannot serve for us a practical and reliable purpose. Perhaps what is real is the Thing underlying truth, any truth, the desire for truth. Maybe morality infact presupposes truth; to believe and strive for truth requires an idea of clarity and betterment and honesty. How easy it would be to live and act and say and believe whatever we want, to pursue only for what we selfishly yearn.

But most of don't - not even as a product of tedious introspection - we just don't; instinctually like Husserl's intuition. For most it permeates beneath every action - is this due to conditioning, or something more abstract? Those of us capable of looking out into the world and seeing people as other terrified little souls wanting love and truth and money; we actually want to live unclouded, as though human nature is perpetually inclined to a certain sort of Balance.

To exist honestly, unattached and unafraid - Heidegger calls this authenticity, the Buddhists enlightenment and the concept of Ubermensch to Nietzsche. While these are all (mostly) unattainable goals, surely it means something that they actually are goals. We aren't content to simply accept who we are and what we are born into (thrown-into-the-world Heidegger calls it). Perhaps morality is this; an indistinct code in which the outcome is always consistent but the method and means to achieving it is in a perpetual, cyclical flux. Is this certainty enough?

But i've accidentally started to believe that the pursuit of certainty leads me further away from it. Moral certainty requires absence of doubt; belief without scepticism. Belief through faith, and i don't have faith.

Can i learn faith?